Boredom

It's really tough to find things to keep you busy at 5:30 in the morning. I must admit that chronotherapy is really tough on the body on the body and the mind. I definitely haven't been really productie over the last couple of days. Fatigue is playing a factor. It's not the same as it was before where my mind was just exhausted. I think it's just a war with my body right now. For me it is definitely not natural to be awake at this time and my whole schedule has been thrown off. It's weird when your whole focus is on being awake for the 19 hours before you go to bed. It's not that I am lacking energy to do anything like it has been in the past. The iron is definitely making a difference. The hard part just seems to be the timing factor. At 7:00 a.m. I'll be having lunch. That just seems really odd to me. But I only have 2 more days to get through. Today should be a little easier since I have the doctor's appointment tonight. Driving to Pickering for it and then coming back will get me through the end of the night. The last three hours are by far the hardest. All you want to do is go to bed and get some sleep but you have to push past it. You focus on the goal and move forwards. Yesterday was incredibly tough. I just wanted to go to bed and really had to force myself to stay awake. But correcting my sleep patterns is what it's all about. This might be one of the only chances I have to try and put my circadian rhythms back to what is considered "normal." And as tough as it is I just have to make it through 2 more days like this. Step 1 in getting my health back to where I want it to be.